I was on maternity leave when the Casey Anthony trial was in full swing. I was up every 3 hours feeding my new little man, and the only thing on all night long besides infomercials was the coverage of the trial on HLN. I watched and watched and watched as this young lady's life unfolded, and as the lies unfolded one by one. I watched her parents, wondering how it would feel to think that your daughter killed your precious granddaughter. I watched the beautiful pictures and videos of adorable little Caylee, wondering just what happened to that little sweetie.
I wondered what Casey was thinking, feeling. Was she just tangled in lies that she couldn't get out of? Did she really hurt her little girl on purpose? Was she grieving for her silently? Or was she just upset that she got caught? I had no idea. But sitting there all hours of the night, in our guest room bed, cradling and feeding my new son, I couldn't imagine any of the scenarios being okay. I cried a lot watching them, partly because I was beyond hormonal, and partly because it was just so terribly tragic and sad for everyone involved. I was shocked when she was acquitted. Shocked.
Now, she has released a YouTube video. She talks about how she got a dog that she loves very much. She says, "It's surreal how many things have changed and how many haven't". I have no idea what it would feel like to lose my child, but I'm pretty sure I would have different things to say than that. Especially if it was by a tragic accident. For some reason, it makes me feel ill to watch her in this. I pray that she gets better - whatever better is.
What do you think about this video? Thoughts? I know I'm too invested in her story. Am I the only one?